When I took drugs for the first time; I felt completely ecstatic, had never experienced a similar feeling of joy and happiness in my entire life earlier. There was a sense of achievement; a feeling of finally having done something which made me feel as if I had done something extraordinary. I had a sense of accomplishment, feeling at par with my other mates who used to always talk about smoking drugs. Now I could also relate to them. All this started at the age of 13 when I had happened to try drugs for the first time in my life. By the age of 15 I had become an addict smoking and taking drugs everyday several times. Access to drugs was quite difficult when I was around 13, but slowly and slowly as I grew up and got to know more and more addicts, availability of drugs was never an issue. Once I got used to taking drugs, my entire life cycle would revolve around it. I was more concerned about, how, where, when and with whom I will be taking drugs and these things started gaining more importance in my life than anything else. Similar to all addicts during their addiction stage, I never used to find anything wrong with doing drugs; in fact like most of them, I too considered them to be the best thing that could happen to individuals. This is a stage when I was in complete disarray and my life had started going hay wire. I had started losing my hold on my studies, couldn’t concentrate resulting in poor grades; had lost interest in practically everything apart from drugs. I would just lie around whole day under the influence of drugs. I had accepted the situation as it was and would justify the state of the situation to myself that it would have been the same even if I hadn’t been doing drugs, so they have got nothing to do with my current state and there is nothing wrong in doing drugs. The state of my mind was in a mess and I used to only find solace in the company of other addicts only.
It is absolutely necessary to get a loved one who is addicted to drugs to enter any of the drug and alcohol treatment programs offered all over the country, simply because it is the only real way out for them.
Once I got used doing drugs, slowly and slowly, the feeling of high that I used to get wasn’t there. I wouldn’t feel a free soul as I used to do earlier. These things started gaining a lot of importance for me and I used to always keep on thinking about this all the time. For me, everything was negative in this world, myself included. These things gained such large proportions that I had to tell myself that there is nothing of the sort that I am feeling, it is all in my mind and when everyone else around is doing it there’s no harm in it. This helped me in getting this feeling out of my mind.
Then I reached a stage where I realized that doing drugs was not and will never do me any good. This is when I realized that persisting with my habit will never lead me anywhere except to my downfall. It is where that I started to get away from this habit of doing drugs all the time. Now I would try and avoid the situations or the people who would do drugs. If I found myself in a situation where I find myself drugs being offered by an acquaintance, either I would refuse or would take a couple of drags and move on. My aim was to get rid of this habit completely, but unfortunately, I couldn’t get rid of this bad habit completely and even till today, I smoke or do drugs sometimes. But now I have this satisfaction that I have been able to convert myself from being a regular addict into a very casual and irregular user, a step in the right direction.
How does one say ‘No’ or avoid drugs.
First and the foremost step are to avoid the places or situations where you feel that drugs are being consumed. You should let you addict friends know that you are trying to or have quit drugs. If they are your actual friends who care for you, they would never pressurize you to smoke and if they still do then they are not good enough to be in company with.
One should always try and look for good people or friends, in these times of need; for support. These should be people who either have never done drugs or have been through that vicious cycle and come out of it. They will be the ones who will be there to support you and take you through these difficult times. Another important thing is to simply throw away any quantity of drugs that you may have in stock. Never think that you might need them again. If one is really thinking of kicking this habit, he should never even have a thought like that.
The ideal way is to slowly and slowly get rid of the desires of doing drugs. Starting from one day then gradually moving onto to multiple days, weeks etc. this is how you should look at kicking this bad habit.
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